time change

equals an inch closer to the freedom of SUMMER... long summer days at the beach with the besties...endless nights doing stuff only summer would allow..sigh..let the countdown begin:

96 days till the time of our lives begins

the way i see it

you gotta live each day as a fresh start, cuz if you hold on to what might happen or what has happened, your day is jacked. everyday begins a new paragraph of your life and each paragraph needs to be better than the last so to speak. going through high school isnt about searching for anything, its about FINDING things..clues to who you're meant to be; people that you arent able to live without; and maybe someone who you can share your life with at the time being. ultimately, if you spend your time looking for an intangible object...well my friend good luck. because i am now spending my time enjoying what i have been blessed with. im tired of fighting for you, and im tired of dwelling on pain from the past, present and pain that has yet to come. here's to letting the good times roll and having the time of our lives while it lasts. cuz before we know it, we'll be going our separate ways and holding on to a couple of texts, a few emails and rare get togethers..

lets make our time with each worth while for the sake of these established friendships that i could not have survived without. so this post i dedicate to all those who have gotten me through the roughest times when i thought i wouldn't be able to dig myself out a treacherous hole; to all those who've i've created a bond with through the experience of music, for the times and performances we are a part of now will never be forgotten; and finally to all those who have stood by me even when i was stubborn and thought i could do it on my own. this last goodbye to anything stopping me from having the time of my life is dismissed with raised glasses and a cheers to the many unforgettable memories to come.

All At Once

"you're" so naive. here's a few words of advice:


"There are certain people you just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to her now she's in question
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
Maybe you want her, maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out"

jEaLoUsY

has never ever been something ive had to worry about. but now..

well thats a different story.

im not sure why i feel it to this extent or its significance but its not a pleasant feeling.


if only you knew the extent to which i feel this something
for you and only you, youve completely altered my universe
its been set on me like a curse
to not have you would be the worst..

I Think "You" Know..

nuff said...

one person has flipped my world upside down...again

for once i am speechless. usually i can find a way for myself to escape these kind of situations..but this one is a tad more complicated than past ones. it consists of 2 very difficult, and emotionally demanding parts..i've completed the easier of the two..so to speak. but the final piece to solving the situation can bring on so much more chaos that i wonder if its even worth it..so for the time being, i turn to a song..as always =P


"I swear that you don't have to go, I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms and spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you

Too late, I'm sure, and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now, against me
You know the words, so sing along for me
For Heaven's sake, I know you're sorry, but you wont stop denying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying, with my heart beside me,
in shattered pieces that, may never be replaced
And if I died right now, you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across your key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us, not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I give my heart as an offering

And I will always remember you as, you are right now to me
And I will always remember you now
So sleep alone tonight
With no one here just by your side
Sleep alone tonight
How does it feel?
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you, I want to
But I can't forget you
So when this is over, don't blow your composure
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you, I want to.."

Back At Square One

is my present state of being.

My trust is lost in people i hold dearest to me, and the people who love me more then anyone on this earth have lost trust and respect for me...just when i thought i was getting back on track..

finding confidence and a hand to hold in someone was an idea i never really got used to until about 2 weeks ago...he taught me how to reopen my heart and let the people that care back in..no more fake fasade, no more transparent emotions. most importantly, he taught me how to be me.

and now i hope i don't fail him by letting this new found obstacle get the best of me..don't give up on me yet. i'll come out strong, if you'll stay by my side. if only i could express how much you've given my life..maybe then you'll see.

but for now, i really am back at square one....time to let go and let god.