Back At Square One

is my present state of being.

My trust is lost in people i hold dearest to me, and the people who love me more then anyone on this earth have lost trust and respect for me...just when i thought i was getting back on track..

finding confidence and a hand to hold in someone was an idea i never really got used to until about 2 weeks ago...he taught me how to reopen my heart and let the people that care back in..no more fake fasade, no more transparent emotions. most importantly, he taught me how to be me.

and now i hope i don't fail him by letting this new found obstacle get the best of me..don't give up on me yet. i'll come out strong, if you'll stay by my side. if only i could express how much you've given my life..maybe then you'll see.

but for now, i really am back at square one....time to let go and let god.