for once..just once..try to understand.

so here i stand, heart in hand, ready to tell you everything i've wanted you to know...don't hesitate to push the subject because i'm stubborn. if you haven't already figured it out, then keep asking and eventually you'll see..that you're the one who understands, that relates, that gives me hope of a better future, and ultimately makes me confident in myself. once you realize, i hope its not too late. too late for us to try something that can turn out to be something we've both wanted for a long time. you're pretty sure of what you want..as am i. the element thats missing is if our wantings belong in the same puzzle..do they fit? we don't know..we can only test the waters. i'll be frank..i'm scared of those waters that create a blurred line between our friendship and something more. but that blurred line carries over into how i look at you. i haven't quite figured you out yet, but that's the beauty of us. we can take all the time in the world to figure each other out so we can find out if we belong. and if not, no harm done. we're too strong to throw away what we have regardless of how messy things get. so we're left to think...wondering why, how, and if only..but the time to think is over my friend. now is the time to act. life's to short to spend your time on analyzing every aspect of life. we just have to jump into this big pool of mysteries and pray that we come out with an answer that will hopefully get us closer to finding who we are.
so this is a warning to you my friend, the subject of this blog, that i will no longer spend my time wondering about the what ifs and if onlys..i'm ready to act. i just hope for once..just once..you'll try to understand.

so this so called friday night farewell has now become a hello that will last forever.