-note to brian

where words fail, music speaks.. its for this reason that i post lyrics in my blog =]

She was given the world
So much that she could'nt see
And she needed someone
To show her who she could be

And she tried to survive
Wearing her heart on her sleeve
But i needed you to believe

You had your dreams, I had mine
You had your fears, I was fine
It showed me what I could find
When two different worlds collide

She was scared of it all
Watching from far away
And she was given a role
Never knew just when to play

And she tried to survive
Living her life on her own
Always afraid of the throne
But you've given me strength to find hope

You had your dreams, I had mine
You had your fears, I was fine
It showed me what I could find
When two different worlds collide

She was scared, unprepared
And lost in the dark, falling apart
I can survive with you by my side
We're gonna be alright
This is what happens when two different worlds collide


- "Two Worlds Collide"; Demi Lovato

reply to brian's "pie"

if pie is like life, what happens when its been eaten by the greedy aspects of this world? are we re-baked..or do we simply die inside..is that what we refer to as a burnout?..i'd like to know..becuase i think that time has come for me..there's nothing left but a few aimless crumbs..how do you recreate your pie?..cuz im not ready to be thrown away with an empty plate..

if you're out there

If you hear this message, wherever you stand
I'm calling every woman, calling every man
We're the generation
We can't afford to wait
The future started yesterday and we're already late

We've been looking for a song to sing
Searched for a melody
Searched for someone to lead
We've been looking for the world to change
If you feel the same
Then go on and say

If you're out there
Sing along with me
If you're out there
I'm dying to believe that you're out there
Stand up and say it loud
If you're out there
Tomorrow's starting now

No more broken promises
No more call to war
Unless it's love and peace that we're really fighting for
We can destroy hunger
We can conquer hate
Put down the arms and raise your voice
We're joining hands today

Oh I was looking for a song to sing
I searched for a leader
But the leader was me
We were looking for the world to change
We can be heroes
Just go on and say

If you're ready we can shake the world
Believe again
It starts within
We don't have to wait for destiny
We should be the change that we want to see

If you hear this message, wherever you stand
I'm calling every woman, calling every man
We're the generation
We can't afford to wait
The future started yesterday and we're already late


"If You're Out There"-John Legend

and the world goes on

Obama...is president today. i feel a sense of new begining for our country. just wish i could say the same for myself. i've fallen into a hole that has pulled my soul down into the depths of no return.. this isnt like me..i'm better than this. so why can't i get back out and on with my life like i'm supposed to be living it. so many hands are reaching out to me...so many ladders have swung over the edge to help me out..but why can't i just reach back, or climb out. right now, this moment in time i don't see one ounce of "nicole" in what i've accomplished this year...so here i am..asking one more time for you to keep reaching out..i need your help now more than ever..

i need my life back.

for once..just once..try to understand.

so here i stand, heart in hand, ready to tell you everything i've wanted you to know...don't hesitate to push the subject because i'm stubborn. if you haven't already figured it out, then keep asking and eventually you'll see..that you're the one who understands, that relates, that gives me hope of a better future, and ultimately makes me confident in myself. once you realize, i hope its not too late. too late for us to try something that can turn out to be something we've both wanted for a long time. you're pretty sure of what you want..as am i. the element thats missing is if our wantings belong in the same puzzle..do they fit? we don't know..we can only test the waters. i'll be frank..i'm scared of those waters that create a blurred line between our friendship and something more. but that blurred line carries over into how i look at you. i haven't quite figured you out yet, but that's the beauty of us. we can take all the time in the world to figure each other out so we can find out if we belong. and if not, no harm done. we're too strong to throw away what we have regardless of how messy things get. so we're left to think...wondering why, how, and if only..but the time to think is over my friend. now is the time to act. life's to short to spend your time on analyzing every aspect of life. we just have to jump into this big pool of mysteries and pray that we come out with an answer that will hopefully get us closer to finding who we are.
so this is a warning to you my friend, the subject of this blog, that i will no longer spend my time wondering about the what ifs and if onlys..i'm ready to act. i just hope for once..just once..you'll try to understand.

so this so called friday night farewell has now become a hello that will last forever.

no day but today

"The heart may freeze or it can burn
The pain will ease if I can learn

There is no future
There is no past
Thank God this moment's not the last

There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret-- or life is yours to miss.

No other road
No other way
No day but today

There's only yes
Only tonight
We must let go
To know what is right

No other course
No other way
No day but today

I can't control
My destiny
I trust my soul
My only hope
is just to be

There's only now
There's only here
Give in to love
Or live in fear

No other path
No other way
No day but today"

luck..

mine has OFFICIALLY run out completely...



"Now i'm starting to realize that getting lost in your eyes
was the worst move, you win and i lose.."

ChAnGiNg

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power."
-Alan Cohen


i need the power to change.




"This is how change happens, though. It is a relay race, and we're very conscious of that, that our job really is to do our part of the race, and then we pass it on, and then someone picks it up, and it keeps going. And that is how it is. And we can do this, as a planet, with the consciousness that we may not get it, you know, today, but there's always a tomorrow."-Alice Walker

show me the sign of a better tomorrow before i fall into the unescapable pit of consuming and regretful old habits.

today

is the 17th birthday of

Brian Abzandro Uribe

so this post of dedicated to him =D

haha

hmmmm...

"I tell you everything that is really nothing,
and nothing of what is everything,
do not be fooled by what I am saying.
Please listen carefully and
try to hear what I am not saying." ~Charles C. Finn

another heart calls

Do you remember when we didn't care?
We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there
Do you remember you at all?
Another heart calls

I remember when we stole the night
We'd lie awake dreaming 'til the sun would wash the sky

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all

What can I do
Say it's true
Or everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

Talk to me
I'm throwing myself in front of you
This could be the last mistake that I would ever want to do
All I ever do is give
It's time you see my point of view

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You want to leave it all

What can I do?
Say it's true
Everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you
All you want is to figure it out
And God knows I do too
What can I do
Say It's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

I'm sorry
So what?
But you don't think I've said enough
I'm sorry
I don't care
You were never there

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all
What can I do?
Say it's true
Everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you
All you want is to figure it out
And God knows I do too
What can I do?
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you



"Another Heart Calls" -All American Rejects: When the World Comes Down

you'll be my hero if you do this duet with me =D

CiRcLeS

drumline practice today...1-9..not too much tends to stick in my mind from an all day @$$-beating. but today was different. i came out of practice with something jeremy said to us:

"A circle is a game of inches."

got me thinking.. alot of things in this world are comprised of circles. even the world itself is a circle. but what does that quote really mean?

in a circle, everything is perfected..no random lines, no diconnected figures. its every inch of a bended line coming together to form the definite shape. so jeremy's right. it's a game of inches. every inch has to be perfect. every aspect correctly placed in order to create a magnificient outcome:

the circle of life for example...every stage of life has to take place in order for the circle to continue. all have to live, and all have to die.

the world was made as a circular sphere for a reason. everything must coexist on the planet to achieve that harmoneous peace we long for. If one little piece is corrupted we all fall with it.

so i guess something worth while can come out of 8 hours of pain..haha..who knew..just a thought for the day =]

until next time =]

TrOUbLe

this is courtesy of "trouble" by nevershoutnever!.
-i fell in love the first time i heard it on jenna's profile =] and it made me think of a current situation. so i decided to tweak it a little bit to best suit me..here i go =P

I'm in trouble
I'm an addict I'm addicted to this boy
He's got my stomach in a knot
And my heart filled with joy
But even worst I can't stop thinking that
He's all I want and more I mean Damnn
Whats not to adore
I've been playing too much guitar
I've been listening to jazz I text so many times
He probably thinks I'm going mad
And that cellular-er
Will be the death of us I swear, I swear

And oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh oooh, oooh, oooh
I'm running my mouth like he hasn't caught on
But maybe he's not
But He's so-o-o-o-o-o-o
ROCK AND ROLL
And out of my league
Is he out of my league?
Let's hope he doesn't catch on

I'm in trouble
I'm so cliche
See that word just wares me out
Makes me feel just like another girl
To laugh and joke about
But even worse I can't stop seeing him
With me in my mind
But honestly, he's a true one of a kind

I've been playing to much guitar
I've been listening to jazz
I text so many times
He probably thinks I'm going mad
And that cellular-er
Will be the death of us I swear I swear

And oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh oooh, oooh, oooh
I'm running my mouth like he hasn't caught on
But maybe he's not
But he's so-o-o-o-o-o-o
ROCK AND ROLL
And out of my league
Is he out of my league?
Let's hope he doesn't catch on



-there you have it. i think it's pretty self=explanatory =D

2009

So 2008 is finally done.
What's next? i sure as heck don't know
but i can honestly say im excited for the unknown
excited for the adventures that destiny will spit out
as we walk down our path of life.
i'm not scared. for once i'm confident in the friends i'm entering this new year with.
so this post is dedicated to my few friends that have made my past year and life worth living.
2009 will be our year to show the world that we will not cower in the face of our problems but confide in the strong pillars of our friendships
you guys have made me see the beauty in life
through the good times and bad your presence has made an unforgettable difference in my life.
I raise my glass to you this coming year and journey that we will embark on to find ourselves.
best wishes to everyone in '09.


"Be the change you wish to see on the world." -Gandhi