An End to a Quest and a Start to a New Begining

So I decided to start fresh with this blog because i feel a change coming in my life.
the way i act, the way i think, my perspective on certain situations, my likes and dislikes, my attitude on all the underlying building blocks of life..
they're all changing.
I'm not sure why..but i think its a good thing.

But today was December 25..Christmas to be exact ;)..
to be honest this whole season didn't feel much like "the holiday season"..
even today, waking up to find our presents under the tree and the smell of my dad's annual Christmas morning breakfast, it just felt routine..
At the end of the day, i felt the upset soon settle in as i realized that i had spent all this time searching for "the Christmas spirit" when all i had to do was stop and let it come to me.
it was evident everywhere i went, but i was too distracted by other complexities in life to see the simplicities of this season.
This Christmas showed me that life's simplest pleasures don't consist of how much Christmas lights you have up or how expensive your gifts were. its truly what you make it..spending time with the family and enjoying the time you've been given to celebrate..
so as this Christmas 2008 comes to an end, i want to mark it as the end of a needed realization and the start of a new outlook on life.

"This is surrender
To a war-torn life I've lived.
Scars and stripes forever
In need of change I can't resist.
No need to hide anything anymore
Can't return to who I was before

I can finally breathe, suddenly alive
I can finally move, the world feels revived

This long of a struggle
Finally opened up my eyes
Revolution's not easy
With a Civil War on the inside
No need to hide anything anymore
Can't return to who I was before
I can finally breathe, suddenly alive
I can finally move, the world feels revived.."