Tell Me Where You Are

If only everything could be written out,
written out as a set of directions
for us to follow on our way through this thing they call life.
So many times do we find ourselves looking for something,
something to fill our already full cup of blessings..
so why aren't we ever satisfied?
A rich man is always seeking the next big expensive thing
that will "boost his status"
Someone who's born with a rare talent is always looking for
something else he can be good at.
A person with straight hair, longs to have curly hair..and vice versa.
Someone who's single is always searching for "Mr./Mrs. Right",
yet the ones who've claimed to have found them still complain about
his/her imperfections.
These quests that we set ourselves on only take up valuable time in this short life.
If only our human minds had the power to be satisfied..maybe the world's lust for power
could be lessened and transformed into an over-indulgence of peace.

But maybe these quests for something greater describe our individuality.
What we yearn defines our character...
So maybe its not the searches that have taken over our already complex lives.
Its how we search.
The only determinent of our success is ourselves..at the end of the day
when your drifting off to sleep, are you proud of what you've accomplished?
there's no doubt that there will always be something that gives you a sense of discontent
because we were made to have imperfections.
But the goal shouldn't be to have everything laid out for you on a silver pladder.
We may wish for something to guide us, like a map persay, but the map shouldn' t be used for every aspect of your life.
those times when you want to give up because you can't take it anymore, take a look at the map.
the times when everything seems wrong and out of place, take a look at the map.
But ultimately, we have to be the tour guide in our lives.
our decisions define us. lead us to carry out our destinies, for lack of a better word.
Our stories have already been written, and its our job to stay on course.
no one said a little cheating hurt anyone. so for my sake, i think its time i take a look at my map..





"Tell me where you are
And I'll find you
Tell me what it takes to see this through
Tell me what it takes to get to you
And I'll be there waiting"

questions..answers

this was a post from my old blog that i decided to keep =]

July 2008

Maybe..just maybe
this could be the end of the chaos
the start of a new begining
a hopeful looking for a miracle..
a strip of light in the darkened tunnel we call life
could it be the answer..the source of reaching out..
making people see the other side of life..the disaster..the one we all hide
even from ourselves
if only we could know peace like we know the alphabet..
by memory..not by description
in this peace we find no limits..
only comfort and answers..
answers to life's most difficult questions..
having only one question in the first place
seeking only one answer after all..
Who am I?

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An End to a Quest and a Start to a New Begining

So I decided to start fresh with this blog because i feel a change coming in my life.
the way i act, the way i think, my perspective on certain situations, my likes and dislikes, my attitude on all the underlying building blocks of life..
they're all changing.
I'm not sure why..but i think its a good thing.

But today was December 25..Christmas to be exact ;)..
to be honest this whole season didn't feel much like "the holiday season"..
even today, waking up to find our presents under the tree and the smell of my dad's annual Christmas morning breakfast, it just felt routine..
At the end of the day, i felt the upset soon settle in as i realized that i had spent all this time searching for "the Christmas spirit" when all i had to do was stop and let it come to me.
it was evident everywhere i went, but i was too distracted by other complexities in life to see the simplicities of this season.
This Christmas showed me that life's simplest pleasures don't consist of how much Christmas lights you have up or how expensive your gifts were. its truly what you make it..spending time with the family and enjoying the time you've been given to celebrate..
so as this Christmas 2008 comes to an end, i want to mark it as the end of a needed realization and the start of a new outlook on life.

"This is surrender
To a war-torn life I've lived.
Scars and stripes forever
In need of change I can't resist.
No need to hide anything anymore
Can't return to who I was before

I can finally breathe, suddenly alive
I can finally move, the world feels revived

This long of a struggle
Finally opened up my eyes
Revolution's not easy
With a Civil War on the inside
No need to hide anything anymore
Can't return to who I was before
I can finally breathe, suddenly alive
I can finally move, the world feels revived.."