Death of a Salesman

will end up becoming "Death of an Overworked English AP Student" by the time I'm done. -.-

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grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.

Now

the truth has made itself evident...maybe i've known all along, but now that the hard facts are there, recieved straight from the source, i can't help but ask why these new found truths didnt make themselves present earlier..i know it was in the plan, but lately i've been questioning even the surest paths in life. so now im left with confusion..once again.


"Once i told a friend that maybe that one guy was right in front of me all along...here's to being obliviously right..for once."

Sweet Sweet Summer

we have 11 more school days and the freedom is finally ours..I tried to put summer in my own words but Jenna put it best:


Late nights. Footprints in the sand. Cothes smelling like bonfires from the night before. Spontaneous plans, and things that have been planned forever. Movie nights, game nights. Running with the rise of the sun. Skimming down the beach without a worry. Walking around the city at night. Pool parties and barbecues. Shorts and tank-tops. Road trips. Summer songs. Sunglasses. The smell of sunscreen. Tan lines. Driving with the top down. Salt and Sand. Freedom. Sleepovers. Concerts. Rolling down hills in the grass. Being with friends all of the time. Taking pictures and developing film. Growing up. Meeting new people. Flings. Laughing until oxygen is hard to find. Projects. Counting down till senior year. Adventures. Unknowns.

Summer.

Can't wait.. =]

"And it was summer

dont hide your sunburn

wear that shirt thats cut so low

i know you loved her

but couldn't trust her

so lets take this extra slow

sleeping in and we're nowhere near the weekend

waking up in a basement with my best friends

we chased our dreams from 9-5

but when the sun went down was when we felt alive."

Seventeen Ain't So Sweet

Good news: I'm not 16 anymore

Bad news: 17 sucks

Good news: Prom on my birthday

Bad news: It SUCKED.

i won't go into detail but basically certain people..scratch that..ONE PERSON..ruined my night..not entirely but for the most part it my suckish night would be due to him.

On the upside, him being an asshole allowed me to dance and have fun with the coolest guys on the planet haha..mainly Kenny..thanks Kenny =D..and In n Out after was good good good..making fun of jenna was good good good..THE LIMO WAS BOOOMB!!! hahaa..after party was cool too..dont really remember much of it but..LOL..jk jk =P..

but i just want to thank everyone in our group for prom BESIDES HIM that made my seventeenth birthdday special =D..all of you looked amazing =P..time is going by so fast now..i remember when i would go out with my family to a restaurant when i was younger and see a bunch of people out to dinner all dressed up for prom and thinking wow..theyre so old..but lucky lol..and now thats us..which is kinda weird..but mostly depressing =P..anyways..looking forward to next years prom for sure..lets let the good times roll!

"Seventeen is just a test,

Yeah and I would recommend

That you live with no regrets

And even if it seems

Like the world is crashing on you

You shouldn't let it hold you down

There's a fire in your eyes

And I hope you let it burn

There's a scream in your voice

And I hope you will be heard

There's a fire in your eyes

And I hope you let it burn until your heard."

Motivate 2009

Some say the youth of the world don't know true accomplishment and success until they've endured the long days and nights filled with agonizing hard work and adversity. I say not.

This year for the drumline will not only go down in history amongst ourselves, but it will live on as a legacy throughout the world of drumline across the nation. The groups we once looked up to are now looking up to us..what we've gone through to get to this point has definitely been tough, but we went through it together..the core of us have been drumming together for 5+ years..we grew up together, got our talent from each other, and created such a bond that we knew was special since the first note we played together.

Looking back on the year in the Drumline/Band perspective, i don't think it could have come at a better time. With our field show revolving around the concept of ONE, and how we must be banded as a unit to achieve everything we dreamed of achieving, we were able to show off how far weve come together. The with our Drumline show being motivate, where one person can end up "making a difference for better or worse," I was forced to reflect back to the time when i only dreamed of being on the snare line with Nikko one day. And we achieved the most respect we could have asked for. After our finals performance, not just ordinary people, but also some of the most prestigious and well-known innovators of the drumline world were coming up to us saying how amazing we performed and gave special recognition to the snare line who was one of the best theyve ever seen.

Going into our final performance, we knew this was it. the last time we would do a "shay pray", or give each other that extra boost of courage to go in front of 10,000 people to show them what we can do. stepping into that arena, with people cheering for you alone only made me be proud of how far we've come; together. and with the last note of our final performance, we knew..we felt it..it was the show and the feeling none of us will ever forget..looking up at the crowd seeing 10,000 people give you a standing ovation, all the hard work didnt even matter..we did it guys we did it. after that we didnt care if we medaled, because we had that performance and feeling to remember for the rest of our lives.. but as jeremy came over to me and brett, as he placed the medals around our necks we looked at each other and knew we had done it; together none the less. On the way back to the hotel i stated :

"Iwish i could just capture that feeling, at the end of that show, and just remember it forever."

alex repiled: "its around your neck..that medal holds each of us and what we felt together."

those words i will never forget and have ultimately motivated me to "be the change i wish to see in the world."

So with this season already at an end all i have is a word of thanks to all the seniors and people who have gotten us to where we are today..3rd in the world aint too shabby huh? No long speech is needed to describe what we felt..it was left in the arena that day, and we'll never forget it.

Holy Crap..

i havent posted in a LOOOOONG time..so much has happened...its funny how things can erupt so quickly when you thought they were deemed permantly dormant...shows how much we know..everyday we're fooled by the game of life that we thought we had all figured out..time to set things straight..here i go diving back into the realms of my everchanging teenage life.

p.s. there will be many posts tonight =D..i know you missed me =P


"True courage isn't the absence of fear; its the will to face it."